*my simple life

2008-10-27T17:15:00.003+11:00

one down, but there's still three more to go!
very worried initially but the exam wasnt as hard as i thought it would be... it's quite alright though.
i'm really very tired and now finally i can have a good rest... but have to start studying again soon cos the next exam is in three days time =X

happy day =)

2008-10-25T12:05:00.003+11:00

over the past few days keep having nightmares =X but finally i had a good night and a good dream... all thanks to one person =) [天啊！你怎么会有那么大的魔力呢？]

i have got my motivation to study!

2008-10-21T13:23:00.002+11:00

it's less than one week to the exams! time is passing so fast that i didnt even realise...
i'm really gonna start studying if not i will really be dead =X

2008-10-20T15:53:00.000+11:00

所谓“春暖花开”。。。虽然春天已经到了而花也已经开了，但是天气还是变化莫测。
忽冷忽热的天气令人难以捉摸。。。

2008-10-14T23:55:00.007+11:00

updated my blog with new blogskin =)
so coincidently this blogskin that i downloaded has the song i like as the background song... unexpected surprise=)

so happy... chatting with andrea over skype... =) really miss her!

lionel's birthday celebration

2008-10-09T00:09:00.004+11:00

just celebrated lionel's birthday at around 11:50pm, the very last moments before his birthday is offically over...

lionel seems to like the cake =) but other than cake he received presents....
spore game cd from alice and me, thumbdrive from jialong and most shocking present from raymond.... guess what he got for lionel.

gay porn magazine! =x

2008-08-05T17:21:00.000+10:00

today i did heart dissection during the lab session, it's sort of fun and i can actually see the inner structure of the heart clearly at one glance.

this is the heart after dissection...
this is the cross section of the heart... nice cross ssection, right? haha=) i still got praised for it.
oh btw we didn't use human heart, it's heart from the sheep.

**所谓“知人知面不知心！”，如果人的心也能像这样看得清清楚楚的话那该有多好啊！如果真能看清一个人的心，现在我就想要看清那个人的心。。。看清了我就不会这么烦恼了！

2008-05-30T03:29:00.003+10:00

why do i always like to wait for miracles whereby things that is impossible becomes possible? i guess it's the faith that i have on that person... hoping that he/she can make things will happen. but it failed... after waiting for more than 2 hours and finally now i should 看清事实 and 觉悟 cos 这个世界是残酷的 and there's no miracles that will only happens in the fairy tales or in drama series.

so now i will listen to fengmei... i will go sleep and wake up to the same old xt that she knows.

我要做回原来的自己!

2008-05-30T01:39:00.005+10:00

feeling extremely upset now. but do anyone know it? NO! do they really care? NO! will they ever apologise? NO!
a lot of things just happened today... to be exact yesterday cos it's just the beginning of a brand new day.
1) jialong got upset... over some comment and over the ski trip cos there's no more available slots. lionel kept saying jialong is upset because of me... but in fact it's actually not my fault! why am i been blamed for everything?! i really dont understand... can someone just tell me why. ('it's just a joke' - i hate the answer, so some other answers please)
2) i got some scolding from mummy for been insensitive.
3) it's cos there's a lot of conflict happening between my friends and i felt very uncomfortable been in between them as i dont want them to fight... cant they just talk things out face-to-face? be more lenient towards each other and just dont be so calculative?
4) i felt out of place... i felt that i'm not welcomed at times when i go over next door. i get locked out... sometimes i got chased out! and i got physical ABUSE! i really hate that and now i should seriously reconsidering things... though i really like them as my friends and like to be with them.
5) sometimes i wonder why there's such a big difference in the way i'm been treated as compared to alice. they talk to alice nicely but shout at me, listen to what alice says but ask me to shut up or comment that whatever i said was crap, do whatever possible when alice request but i'm been denied when i ask for favor. WHY?! what's the reason behind the drastic difference in treatmemt?
6) there's always a big question in my mind... is the person you care for, care for you as much as you care for them? i have ask nijo this question but now i have to ask myself. alice is the only one that i'm close to in australia and she's my only best friend in australia. i felt so sad when she didnt notice that i'm upset at times... i walk passed her crying but she's too engross studying. i dont blame her but just hope she can care for me more.

i felt so crappy now! and i really wants to go HOME (Singapore)!

2008-05-22T23:31:00.003+10:00

tuesday night chiong last immunology report, wednesday night chiong BMS report and presentation, and today i have to chiong DEV report when everyone else got no other assignment to chiong... and they are enjoying life - watching movies, slacking around.
nevermind... this is the last assignment that i have to do anyway. after this report, i'm going to slack like them... haha =)

well... show you guys something interesting. my drawing of the chick embryo for the DEV report... cute right? though it look like an alient.

opps... zhongkai is that you? =X (zhongkai = alient)

2008-05-22T11:56:00.000+10:00

my aussie friend, james, won the chinese competition and he sang <<青花瓷>> during the competition - watch him in the video.

cool right? angmoh speaking mandarin so well... but some chinese cant even speak mandarin as good as him. time to reflect...

2008-05-21T22:25:00.001+10:00

stupid lecturer... didnt turn up for the lecture without any notice. the whole lecture full of students are waiting for you... do you know?! cant you inform us that you are not coming... so that i can sleep a bit longer instead of wasting my time in the lecture theatre waiting for someone who's not going to turn up.

2008-05-20T00:46:00.002+10:00

wonder why i should treat people so nice when they didnt treat me the same. i'm not expecting they treat me as good as i treat them but at least half as good as what i did and that's what i will be expecting.
我挺你，但你完全没有挺我。难道真的那么难吗？还是几年的朋友比不上几个月的朋友？

2008-05-17T17:31:00.002+10:00

the cold weather is making everyone unwell. everyone seems to become sick... one by one. first is lionel having cough then the sick bug was passed to alice... and a few days ago jialong was down with fever. now... simon's turn to feel unwell. wonder when's my turn... hopefully my turn wont come cos i really hate the sick feeling.

2008-05-13T17:45:00.002+10:00

interesting lab session for my developmental modules... chick embryo. i wasted two unfertilised eggs (those eggs in the supermarket that we can eat) to practise... waste food. haha=) and i killed two of the 2 day old chick embryos. one was cos i broke the yoke and the heart beat just stopped.... omg! i'm a MURDERER. the other was after i view it under microscope and i threw it away.... in the bin. finally i did the mini surgery on the 3 day old chick embryo where i have to remove part of the AER at the limb bubs, which will be forming the limbs. the consequences of the removal of AER will be known next week... but it's predictable that the chick will not be able to develop the limb. so poor thing =(
one thing happy about today's lab session was... i'm one of the first few that finish the practical assignment early and i can go off to have lunch before the next lesson starts. yeah!
bought a lot of fried stuff (nuggets, tapioca cake, and spring rolls) and ice chocolate, found a nice and quiet place to eat... i never like eating alone but i tried today and the feeling is really bad, i felt so lonely especially when seeing all the people there with accompany. where's my friends?! (in SINGAPORE obviously... and i missed all of you)
i felt extremely emotional when i took out my phone wanting to call someone but i dont know who to call and suddenly i thought of the song that i sang with jialong in kbox... “当你孤单你会想起谁”

2008-05-03T16:55:00.006+10:00

i really hate the feeling of knocking the door and nobody wants to open the door for you. i felt like an idoit who was isolated out by the rest when i stand outside the door and knock so hard but no one open the door for me. they were talking so loudly and i knew they were there but just no one cares to open the door. do they? or they just didnt hear me knocking...? - i always like to find excuses but the reality differ, the reality can be just as simple as they heard but just dont want to open.
i just hate the feeling of going to the place that i cant get full access to, and it just makes me feel that it's not a place that i belongs to. i think i made the wrong decision to join a place that doesnt welcome me.
and what really annoy me is WHY i always make the wrong decision?!

**事情的经过到底是怎样，我已经不想知道了。因为真相是残酷的，知道后也只会伤得更深。**

2008-05-02T01:55:00.002+10:00

brand new day but just finished games of tai di with alice, tsing whye and jialong... keep losing and owe each of them a cup of coffee. doesnt really feel good maybe cos i'm a leo who takes winning and losing too seriously. but anyway it's just coffee so i'm still ok with it.

**keep feeling sad and seems to be crying everyday, though accompaniment from alice and the rest have made me better at times but when i'm alone, the tears couldnt stop flowing out.
ever since i came here, i got a lot of injuries - physical and mental ones... and the most hurting one is my pride.**

2008-04-30T21:18:00.006+10:00

it's a very cold day again... don't feel like getting out of bed but was woke up by a heavy knock on my head by a stupid handphone. started preparing bento for lunch to bring to alfred hospital, pork cutlet rice =)

went for lecture, which i almost felt asleep, then rush to alfred hospital for lab session and eat bento on the train. something funny happened on our way... haha=)
4 of us (dzul, lionel, alice and me) took train together... dzul had lunch already so only 3 of us were eating the bento while standing near the door. there's one old lady sitting near the door that saw only 3 of us eating and thought dzul doesnt have money to eat so she put some coins into his pocket, all of us were stunned by her act. but dzul reacted fast and return the coins to her.

did some experiment at alfred hospital and as usual, long hours of incubation and waiting time. listen to james' speech (in mandarin) while waiting, i find him quite amazing cos he knew how to speak 3 languages (english, mandarin, bahasa indonesia) with high proficiency in all three. actually james made my day cos i'm washing my hands and he's such a gentlemen to walk to the end of the bench and get me tissue automatically without anyone asking and such a small act can be so sweet.
comparing james to the guys next door... haix 简直没得比 cos the guys next door 完全被比下去了。so guys next door... 多学着点吧！haha=)

the trip back home from alfred hospital was quite fast cos we caught the train that go directly to clayton. waited for the bus at clayton and eat the super delicious raisin bread that dzul bought... it's super nice.

**today my mood swing a lot... i cried for quite a number of times and the tears just like spoilt tap which couldn't stop. firstly because in the early morning was hit so hard by someone using the stupid handphone but was not consoled instead i'm scolded cos my head bang the 'precious" handphone. secondly because the weather is so gloomy that makes me so sad and think of home. thirdly because i felt so left out and cant adapt well.**

but don't worry i'm ok now after calling home and of course the comforting from alice makes me feel better and at least i felt that i'm IMPORTANT to some one out there again. thanks alice for always been by my side =)

2008-04-27T20:32:00.004+10:00

making green bean soup today, spend around 1 and a 1/2 hour cooking and it's smell really nice - the usual pandan leaves smell and the taste is not bad too. BUT when cooking dinner, i put the pot on another stove and didnt realise that the stove was so hot that my green bean soup become "chao ta". try to salvage it but doesnt seems to work well cos the burnt smell in it is so strong and no choice have to pour it away. sad =( all my effort have gone down the drain...

2008-04-26T21:44:00.006+10:00

it's a usual saturday where i woke up only in the early afternoon. came home from next door and realised banu was here to do assignment with lena and priya. then we started chatting and reminiscing about life in RP while having a potato chip party. we browse through the photos that we have took together... i really missed all of you: carolyn, lirong, weiyang, samuel, cheehan, zhongkai, and all the rest in W56C. didn't really chat much with lena, priya and banu as they have to chiong assignment.

went back next door and the rest woke up already, so we went clayton for grocery shopping cum lunch. havent been doing grocery for quite sometime, the fridge is quite empty as all the stock are running low so we bought damn a lot of stuff... but lucky the guys are helping out today.

grocery lists:

1) 4Kg of CHICKEN

2) 2Kg of PORK

3) 2Kg of BEEF

4) vegetables

5) 1 carton of instant mee goreng

6) bottled green tea

look at the amount of meat that we are consuming... haha our house are full of CARNIVORES. other than buying the usual grocery stuff, i also stock up my 出前一丁instant mee...

time flies... when we came back from clayton it's already 5plus so alice started prepare dinner and i helped out. STEAK for dinner... yummy! Thanks alice =)

last day of sch and jap graduation

2008-02-01T22:36:00.003+11:00

having severe diarrhea since last night most likely due to the eating leftover fried rice from the potluck. wanted to go school because today is the last day of my schooling life in RP and want to spend some last moments together with my lovely W56C classmates. thought that the diarrgea will subside after taking both panadol and characol pill but it doesn't seems to get better. it worsen and no choice i have to stay at home. had some rest and hoping i will get well by late afternoon so that i can attend my graduation for my japanese lesson and indeed i felt better.

went back to RP at around 4, the time when everyone ends the lesson and about to go home. saw crowds walking towards me while i walk against the current to get into W5 to find andrea, went to my class with andrea to have a last look before i leave the campus and saw alice, nijo, lirong and weiyang playing mahjong in class for the very last time. lirong is such a sweet guy, he prepared a gift for everyone in the class (inclusive of PETER) and i got a small mahjong tile with "FA" on it.

then went to JAS graduation in andrea's car and accompany andrea to submit the application for the next semester jap class first before going to the hall. felt a bit sad not able to join the class for the next semester and what makes me even more sad is that i couldnt eat much of the delicious jap buffet cos of my stupid diarrhea.

took the first and last class photo together, they are such nice classmates that have been through two semester together. i will miss them after i go to melbourne, take care people. master jap and teach me when i came back =)